loose ends

the little buddha has been missing from my blog lately. my computer officially hates me...i've been organizing photos for what seems like forever. i will get back on the good foot and make sure miles gets enough face time here. he is changing so quickly. now that he is six months+, he is becoming so independent. he wants to sit and play with his toys or lie on the couch while we are near. he doesn't like to be held quite as much anymore. he is developing opinions. this is scary. he is starting to give indications of what it is he wants and this is really fun. he started saying mamamamamama two days ago, but i don't think he is referring to me. seems like he uses this word to let us know that he wants nurturing. that pesky first tooth is STILL making its way in, so he gets whiny about the pain. poor little guy. he is teaching me so much about budgeting my time. i told B last night that i have always been a bit of a lollygagger, procrastinator, busyworker (read: decluttering before i can get to the real work)...since m sleeps so little, his naps mean get into the studio and get busy. i love that he is my teacher.

this is a piece i started in december. i didn't know it would be a dedication to the nine of us when i began. there are also nine coyotes buried within...my girls. all facing our tricksters and shadows and lights and stories while helping each other along. this one's for you!

the business of painting is becoming a frenzy. i have a goal to complete 24 by june, and i have varnished three so far. yikes! i do believe it can happen. i'm really enjoying my process-i feel really fearless when i face the canvas, a new thing for me. i'm just workin.

when i went back to school a few years ago, in the end to get my degree in fine art, i was of the belief that my work could not be validated without a degree, proving that i had some training in composition, color theory, et al. and i thought that i would also teach (you know, to fall back on) because i had no idea what i would do once i got the damn degree.

i met with my friend maggie in december, who does this amazing healing work that involves muscle testing your truths...i know! crazy, huh? well, i offered to be a guinea pig as my two other dears watched-the statement i gave was "without my degree i cannot do the work i am meant to do". she asked me how true the statement was on a scale of 1-10 with ten being really true. i think my answer was eight... so she worked quickly to reverse this belief, did a little clearing and then asked me again. i truly felt, not because i had changed my mind about the thing, but i truly felt like this wasn't true anymore.

just like me, i went on and forgot about it. until yesterday. i realized that the plaguing, heavy, dark, sinking, burdensome feeling of needing to rush back to school to finish the monster under the bed was not there. in fact, i had not thought about it since.....WAIT A MINUTE!!? since december???? wtf?

so i'm turning this over, you see. just one of the many little colored threads in my consiousness.

this week i am working with:

*Bear-for strength, major unearthing in order to tune into that psychic glitter that helps me express myself. *Dolomite-for eliminating confusion-getting clear.

LOVING the processes of these lovelies:

teesha moore, jenny vorwaller, and tara finlay. they are all amazing. go see!

sending you a hunk of earthy red modeling clay to press your unique thumbprint into, leaving your magic mark on the world, because i am waiting to see what you've got, i know it will be jsut marvelous...