fear vs. faith

I am thinking about what some of you said two posts ago about fear of failure and of not amounting to anything. In my life, I am always seeking meaning. When I believe there is no meaning to my life, I am truly in a spiritual crisis. and I've been there a few times, but I'm always willing to make the changes necessary in order to get back on track . In the creative community that is my spiritual home, many of us have moved beyond a general fear of complete failure, but like the viper that fear is, it does rear its ugly head now and again. What I think is important, SO important to this process is having the community. Like souls are here to remind us that we can accomplish our goals, and not to be afraid. The dark, buried, secret fears are the ones that can hurt us the most. I talk to my intimates about "unchecked" fear or other unconscious itches being the most dangerous. In a creative community, we artists are quite passionate. We are prone to taking things personally, making mountains out of molehills and sometimes needing to go "underground" to sort out our stuff. I think that this aspect has the potential to make us such whole beings. Denying our shadow aspects mean we are stuck in the mystifying land of unawares. And while we live there, we are not living our own lives. Who is? Being a creative person, an artist, if you will, holds all the meaning i need in my life. to me, it means that I am willing to go there. My medicine woman teacher, Bear Who Dances With the Sky says that a shaman goes to other realms of consciousness to seek wisdom and healing to bring back to the tribe. An artist does the same thing in my opinion. We go into ourselves to bring forth a meaningful life and, with some of our work we hope to bring a sparkle of hope to others wanting to have the same. The main reason for not letting fear rule us is that we cannot afford to get stuck. Fear is like a giant fallen tree across our path. Artists find a way to climb, scurry, heave ourselves over in order to keep moving toward the new idea. Introspection is paramount for getting over such hurdles. I love what Carolyn Myss says about fear in Anatomy of the Spirit:
"Negative acts and negative thoughts originate in fear"..."Faith in anything, be it positive or negative, produces results. Putting faith in fear generates destructive results, beginning with the disintegration of our ability to relate confidently to the world."
What would you do differently if you were absolutely sure that your fears could manifest themselves? That by allowing them to be anything more than fleeting thoughts or fuel, you could be bringing the worst possible scenario to our doorstep. How would you feel if you believed that you are responsible for failing only because you dared to allow it as a possibility? How would you change the way you approach your fears? Thinking this makes me want to examine my fears even more, to deconstruct them, and take away their power. One of my biggest fears is missing details. I want to pay attention MORE, to hear MORE, to absorb every drop of significance in order to use it in my tapestry. Tell me, what do you think?


Blogger liz elayne said...

these posts are inspiring me so much. and as i have caught up on some blog reading today, it is clear that these posts are inspiring others. you have started something here with your invitation to let it out. this is fantastic.
and fear. yes. taking away the fear's power. that is it, isn't it? naming them begins to do that.

3/08/2006 10:41:00 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

Thank you for putting into words what I couldn't.

3/09/2006 08:37:00 AM  
Blogger Dragonfly girl said...

Thank you for sharing so beautifuly the words that are truly deep in your soul. I feel exactly the same way as far as if I don't have meaning to my life I then am in a spiritual crisis myself.

3/09/2006 08:56:00 AM  
Anonymous treehugger said...

perhaps more comes when we TRY less.

3/09/2006 09:00:00 AM  
Blogger Feisty said...

When I read this, and you posed the question about my fears actually becoming real, it woke me up. I realized I should think about all the good things that could happen, and that might actually help me manifest those things. Dwelling on the negative rarely does anything good for me.

3/09/2006 09:40:00 AM  
Blogger Tongue in Cheek Antiques said...

Being yourself. Just be yourself. To just be...not to try...just to be a yourself.
Present to the moment of yourself.

3/09/2006 10:42:00 PM  
Blogger Ally Bean said...

The main reason for not letting fear rule us is that we cannot afford to get stuck.

I love this post. You've said what I believe but have never figured out how to say. Thx.

3/10/2006 01:53:00 PM  
Blogger Goddess of Leonie said...

deep blessings to you huntress...

i love your excavating, your fear~seeing, your combining of spirituality with art...

three things that form so much of my life and my inner work.


deep blessings,
Buffalo Woman.

3/12/2006 03:14:00 PM  
Anonymous Blind Leader said...

Not all artists weave in and out of introspection. I leave the analysis and resulting personal affronts to those who have the time to pick and instead exhibit the underneath of my skin to all who care to glance.

There is no daredevilling in this, just merely what is and what I find myself being born to do.

Just let go.
Let them be.
And be who you are.
Just do.
There is no "try".

3/21/2006 05:10:00 AM  

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